So happy to be back in Santa Monica

I am renting a unit in Lety's house who is my ex host mom Gaby's niece!
Oh my god... this unit is awesome!!!!!!
She prepared the little detail things that I needed too... it had everything what I really need! Seriously;)
I was so amazed by thinking about how much she cared about the guests... not like the ex landlord...she was just a jerk.
I never felt this much safe for a month! Seriously I was in the hell lol

Wells and I were just talking about how LA is all about games... and that is why he loves here so much lol...
There is certain time that I need to really understand that means for myself tho...
and my ex freaking crazy landlord woman was just doing her business too! I've gotta win those jerks!!! I do not wanna lose them seriously...

My dance camp in Noho was not so good to be honest...
I did not even dance around that I was expecting myself to do! I did not know why I was not feeling to dance at all at first... but started getting to know what I was thinking slowly...
well I just found that there are too many competitions among dancers and it is not about money of course. People who love money do not wanna be dancers. I saw too many people like me. They were from around the world and chasing dream to be a professional dancer in America. Yes that is what I wanna do too! but since I saw the same people like me... I wanted to stand out no matter how.
and I also thought that it is silly to try to win over American dance to American people who were born here and have been learning since they were born. I just have to be myself not like everyone else! To do this, I really need to think the way to do that.
It was not only dance for me actually. Dance brought me here I know that but I wanted to be different. I wanted to be someone different who is chasing her dream. I wanted to be someone who chases her dream no matter what. I wanted to be someone who inspired people by doing what she wants and loves. I wanted to be someone who is known by a lot of people. I wanted to be someone who gives people dream. I wanted to be someone who makes people wake up happier than the day before. I wand to be someone who make a better world. All that came to me suddenly when I came to LA. That was much bigger than being a dancer. I thought a dancer world in LA would be different that what I saw in Japan. The scale is much bigger and it is great but not as much as I expected... To really be the one who I want to be, I need to be popular because everyone should know me. They way to do that is not only by dancing. It is about everything socially! Acting, singing and storytelling! Okay let's go Saya! I can do this!
cause I wanna make a better world;) I wanna make my dream come true! I wanna have fun!